#Random: Life as a Stroke Patient ( Part II)

 Life as a stroke patient has never been easy. We have constantly been mocked, shouted at, angry of us, and of course all because we are out of the workforce especially me. 

I am a stroke patient and have not been working for almost a year this September  2023. My mum passed away only on 28 Oct 2022. I was devastated when she was gone forever. I was only allowed to visit/pay the last respect for half an hour as I was still admitted to the hospital at Level 9 while my late mother was at Level 6. 

in my heat 

Until today I am still unable to get rid of her. She always stays in my mind and heart forever.

I tried to find a job since Jul 2023 to temporarily work from home till I fully recovered. But no one would accept me as I still stumble. My dominant hand had improved a bit. I can do my typing using my laptop but a problem with writing using a pen or pencil. I am a certified CERT, certified First Aider + CPR. Schedule to renew my First Aider + CPR next year in June 2024. I also had my Higher Diploma in Facilities Management and Electrical & Mechanical Services. Still, I could not get a job. Now most companies use web-based feedback/requests. Yet difficult to get a job. With a robust and advanced environment, it is difficult to get into a job. 

Desperate measures made desperate decisions. I am still recovering and looking for a job to make myself available and ready to join the workforce. How to get better if most look down on me as a stroke patient. I have strong willpower to get better but again they look down on me. I am strong and want to get better cause I used to be the sole breadwinner. I will sacrifice anything for my elderly and sickly parents and siblings. Since my mother has left me alone, I have to overcome it myself. My cries and pains always keep me companied and my blog is my life. Photography is my therapy too. I loved taking pictures around me, especially blue sky paintings and flowers/natures. I hope I get a job soon and fully recover too. I am looking forward to getting a job.

I am who I am and I cannot be others. It is not easy but Allah Almighty will not test His ummah out of their abilities. I know that stormy days will go off soon and I will be fully recovered.